it's been such a long time since I really lived. I spend all of my life now laying on my bed in the dead of night and crying uncontrollably.
there's not much left for me to do anymore. I'm not really the master of my own destiny if I can't even leave my room. the people i do talk to, i feel next to nothing about. i forgot how to love other people or hate other people
there's so much I want to get done but it's just not possible anymore. i don't really know what makes me aluto anymore if I can't do anything the old aluto used to. I don't know what to do anymore except cry. I can't feel love or affection or anything. I don't know what to do anymore. spend the night with me and fix me please