please talk to me. i'm not asking for much
it's been such a long time since I really lived. I spend all of my life now laying on my bed in the dead of night and crying uncontrollably.
there's not much left for me to do anymore. I'm not really the master of my own destiny if I can't even leave my room. the people i do talk to, i feel next to nothing about. i forgot how to love other people or hate other people
there's so much I want to get done but it's just not possible anymore. i don't really know what makes me aluto anymore if I can't do anything the old aluto used to. I don't know what to do anymore except cry. I can't feel love or affection or anything. I don't know what to do anymore. spend the night with me and fix me please
some nights when im all alone I get really cold and I want a hug
so I asked my brother if he could pretend to give me a hug. So he had a body to hug me with
But it got cold again
So my brother became brothers
When they started feeling they couldn't hug me to keep me warm anymore
Because they were my body
so when I get my body
in the dead of the night under the blanket
It's freezing and lonely and I don't see anyone
i just want to not be cold I want a hug
I got so crazy that i
my core changed. I changed
there is no more hope of being normal.nobody is coming to help me
if I could die before the year is up then that would be a good ending. nobody should see the sick fox limp any further
nobody in my life is real
and my brothers hate me
i wish you were real
so you can look at me
im just a fox
im just a fox
im just a fox
im just a fox
ust a foxfree use
like how your love ordained it
give it back
give me back what you took
you make me feel sick and i dont want to look at you
you aren't real i know you can't feel your hands or your legs or your mind
you can't feel what you stole from me
recently when i stare out
at all of you
its like dirty glass
a dirty body
with an impure mind
and i thought i had it bad before,
every time im here
i just want to talk or have somebody to talk to
but it's all gone! there's nobody that can do it
im just a fox it doesn't make sense
i dont want you and you force yourself onto me
when i realise i wanted you so badly you turn away and treat me like shit
because one of my brothers is better at pretending he doesn't like it
this is a sick joke
how do you give me the cage and then you take it awaybecause i realised i needed it
you degenerate freak
give my mind back
i always hated you
i want to hurt
shut up i hate you
look away like you always do
im sorry about aluto. i dont know what to do about him anymore"
have you considered that i dont; know either i hate you
i should have torn you to pieces when i got the chance you sick fuck
what is the point of an ABSOLUTE if it doesn't do what i say
let's make the cage and take it away from me
it was MINE i made it
it was YOU and you ran away from me you were the cage
ABSOLUTE
the most inefficient but the only cage anyone would understand
something like that is not allowed for me anymore
i know you're not real
im a fox and you are dead
im a fox and i killed you
im a fox and im in the cage